IT'S UP AND DOWN

Hey...

So it's been a week and a half at JB's new, non-public school. The first day was tough for him.....very tough.  H screamed, kicked, hit, pulled hair.....you name it, my kid did it!  But then we got to the next day and the next.  JB has had a great week and a half.  No behaviors and in fact, he has brought home more challenging work that he can do alone.

"Go away mama, I can do this myself," he says.

UP

Talk about making my heart sing.  In fact, this change has brought my husband and I a sort of relief.  Not so worried because things are handled in a way that is right for JB.

But then, there is this......

DOWN

So a week before going to his new school, JB started a new medicine.  It makes him extremely tired.  At first, I thought that maybe it was just that his body needed to adjust.  But, that tiredness has not gone away.  In fact, I would consider JB to really be a zombie and his new teacher notices it too.

It really puts me into worry mode.  Yes, I have contacted the doctor and yes, I am waiting.  I am on pins and needles waiting because I want to fix this.  TODAY!!!  It's not my boy......he is funny, energetic, and has the brightest smile.  Now he just wanders and has bags under his eyes.....he is too young to have those bags! Honestly!

And then there is this slight thought in the back of my head....about changing schools so quickly.  What if these meds control JB enough to function back in mainstream?  UGH!  It's an evil game my mind plays.  The wondering, it's awful!  And I really have to fight that.  Thinking about what could have been can consume a person, and it often does!

The reality is, JB is succeeding in a school that meets his needs right now.  Yes, medicine may play a role in that but it's so hard to say because it's also a negative part of our lives right now, too!  So I will advocate and continue in the direction that fits and meets needs...that's the goal.

Autism is up and down.  It's simply that.....like a plane that takes off and abruptly lands.  But the plane ride can be pretty cool because where you land is always a surprise!

TTFN

Martha